Hi, it was very nice to talk and “meet” some of you today. For all who are joining tomorrow’s Skype, I’m Sam(antha) and I’m in Module Three. I deferred in January, so I have already done some work for this Module.
I would like to write about the monthly Skypes we engage in. I did write about this topic in September, but I feel that I have a different view about them today and have discovered another aspect of myself.
The Skypes have been until now, something I have not looked forward to each month. I could never really pinpoint why though. I’ve never been one to stand up and talk in front of people, I have never been one to express my views to people that I don’t know, and I have shied away from confrontation in my everyday life. These factors were my starting points for the Skypes, not a particularly good and positive attitude!
I have felt uncomfortable and exposed, and the silences that sometimes occur feel awkward. I also had had the view that I wasn’t smart enough, and what have I got to offer of any use to anybody?
Having a little pause from my studies has been helpful. Taking a little step back has provided me with the opportunity to review certain elements of the programme, the Skypes being one of them. I wondered what I was getting out of the Skypes and why I felt panicky and never at ease. The Skypes should help me facilitate my learning not be a hindrance.
What I have discovered about myself through this reflection is that I have problems articulating myself. This is even to the point that I put Norwegian (I live in Norway) words into a conversation without realising it, or I can’t remember the word in English, or that I can’t remember how to pronounce a word. This, was not something I took seriously before but as a presentation is part of Module Three, I need to face this issue. The monthly Skypes surely are a tool that can help me with this? They are a platform for me to express myself and receive feedback in the form of a conversation, what is there to fear? Nothing, they provide information, help, and needed support.
I look forward to the next Skype and putting my words into practice! I hope everybody has a good start.